Single and Uncomfortable

   So you finally let go of that toxic relationship? So what now? The one person that was always around, the one you always hung out with and slept next to is no longer around. So what now? A lot of people are so Single and Uncomfortable that they miss what was not good for them and they are willing to go back what almost killed them spiritually.


There was a certain time in my life where I had been praying to God in a relationship saying, "God I cant do this anymore.Its too much." I prayed it very often. When I finally let go, I got scared. I didnt want to know what life was like without that dysfunctional comfort because thats what I was used to. I didnt want to see that person move on and have a better relationship with someone else. So I thought it would be better if God could just put it back together. So I prayed.


There was one day when I was at home. I was in silence. I was alone. I remember I was walking toward my bed and I was thinking about something. I then heard God speak to me and say, "you are just like the Isrealites." I knew what he was talking about. I knew because I had read the story of the Isrealites (multiple times), when they had been set free from Egypt and wanted to go back because they were Uncomfortable with the state they were in. They had cried out to God to deliver them and now they were finally free from bondage. Free from slavery. But they didnt have food. They were traveling all the time. I mean of course the Egyptions were beating them and working them and treating them with so much cruelty, but the Isrealites were taken care of. So it made sense to go back, right? That was a whole lot better then trusting God. Right?


  So God was saying to me, all the times you prayed, you now have a chance to be set free, but you want to go back. Now I want you to understand, a lot of times when God speaks, he gives confirmation. This was one of those times. I had been reading a bible plan called Dont Look Back. Coincidentally, I had forgotten to read the last two days. Well, it was a Saturday when God spoke, Monday I decided to catch up with my plans for my app. The days that I missed were about the exact same thing God spoke to me about. It was amazing! I was so over joyed that God had taken time to speak to me that way. 


Philippians 3:13-14

Brother's and sisters, I do not consider myself to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.


        Gods deliverance is awesome, its for a lifetime. Its not for a season. If God had made us free, we can be free. We dont have to look back to the things of the old that may have not been good for us. It's time to trust God and move forward. Yeah, he did a lot for you. You two have kids together. He helped you pay bills. But should this really be the deciding factor in staying in unhealthy relationships? Or can we just trust God pick up the slack and move on with healthy lives? Being in slavery is really all in the mind. If we have already been made free, why not be free? If we are aware that we are free but choosing to stay in bondage, its because we have not tranformed our minds being free. 


Hebrews 12:1-2

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perservence the race marked out for us, fixing our eye on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. 


We have a race to run in this life. We can't run trying to hold on to baggage. It'll only weigh us down. It's time to let go and fix our focus on Jesus. Being single isn't really all that bad if we have people around to encourage you. Its also not bad if you spend more time focusing on the vision and plan God has for you. When we understand that God has a plan for our lives and that ministry is apart of that plan, we become less focused on trying to be consumed with a relationship. That doesn't meanyou wont have the desire, but keeping focus on Jesus will cause us to stay focused on what is most important. Ultimatley, waiting for God to place us in the right relationship.


  Use this time as a chance to get to know your self worth. I have to keep reminding myself or it will seem ok to want to go back to something that was never good for me. To be deceived again. Don't allow deception to keep you looking back thinking that nothing good is before you. We can surrender to God because his plans are to prosper and not to harm us. But to give us hope and a good future. So being single may sometimes be a little uncomfortable, but think about the freedom we have, and the deliverance of things that are of the past.